pashes

it's not dead nor alive

2009-04-06T13:43:00.005+08:00

i thought i would leave this dead, but no, i couldnt resist today to make another post. im so damn sick on thriving in which understanding things and even people are out of reach. I'm really sick of myself not willing to do anything to further improve myself and making myself feel more about myself. What I want to do, is to take a train to town and back again, it'll do me hellava good.

Once i really start on my life, i want to concentrate, all the other things would be out of mind, theyll be. I would start tearing myself from the fantasy, and i really wanted to things the end it already.

and yes, i suppose ure not taking in or understanding whatever im typing from start of the read to the end, but right now my brain nerves, the neurons, the transmitters are covered by ten thousand eight hundred and seventy two things. basically, im sickly confused. and im sickly insecure, sickly paranoid, sickly irritable, sickly nauseous, sickly suicidal.

2008-12-19T12:30:00.000+08:00

oh hell yes i've moved !

18.12

2008-12-18T21:43:00.005+08:00

i was half shocked britney appeared on heyx3
i didnt realised the tan on her belly aint the same on her arms. i was looking at that for a very long time i must admit. is that some fab going on with that ? pls correct me if im wrong.

she did a short live well not really live, she lip-sync anyways.

womanizer is a pretty nice song to my ears, after watchin heyx3, the song is ringing in my ear now. SEND ME !

17.12

2008-12-17T21:23:00.002+08:00

damn those pills. im always on drowsy moood, as if im always on high.
damn the sickness, i want to run again !
im going to crash in damn early today.
by tmr, you my body better be ready to gear up.

15.11

2008-12-15T13:42:00.005+08:00

was supposed to go bookshop today, but woke up late and it's raining slightly so lazy to go. and now im extremely regretting it.

we had big big plans for ytd, but in end cos of someone, we ended up in admiralty having mac. mymy all those calories. haven ran for a week already ! i need my bie guai ta 50times !

it's still not the full 6ix people. ohwell. still got another time right, and yes that's 3mths later as we scheduled.

13.12

2008-12-13T01:19:00.002+08:00

i know your biggest secret and you had known mine. it's always something i had always wished it's true & it did. Still, i did not initiate. The inferiority of me towards you is something you always find me with a sad expression. You asked me why such a face ? You could always find that im not okay, but i could never answer you. The shallow me would want you to open up the world for me. But i know, eventually you will cast me aside once you moved on to your new circle. it would be sunday right.

8.12

2008-12-08T21:57:00.005+08:00

altho i was mean to you then, but when i gone through the nights of taking care of you. youre a strong woman, i could never deny that. you had own your thinking and believe me, you had the strongest will-power i've seen thus far. Our iron lady in our family, im sorry i was not strong enough to bade goodbye to you. It's hard to accept that you're gone even if i know everyone had to go someday.

R.I.P my dearest grandma.

7.12

2008-12-07T01:55:00.007+08:00

i was watching the movie [about a boy] which is really good. but anw once nicholas hoult appears on-screen, i could recognise him instantly he's the guy from the series, skins. i probably had a shock cos i thought skins was his debut. he hadnt change much from young, base on the way i could recognise him so straight away.
those eyes those eyebrows, that nose . aint they same as two peas ?

im so dead trying to get over the fact im not seeing you for a week.
out of sight and pls out of mind

5.12

2008-12-05T23:49:00.006+08:00

pinye figured out we never taken a pic tgt before, so yeah i photoshopped. it looks terribly real i know =D

and i went to hmv, grabbed 3dvds and checked out. WOW, it felt so damn good. =D
she's like the mirror of me, hated to buy stuff ourselves, damn not right with the directions and roads. it's a pain to go out with her cos we could always get lost la ! and yeah we're both damn lazy we dont have folders or proper files.

4.12 massssu extreme change

2008-12-04T14:07:00.006+08:00

it's ever the first time i saw massu with such such such short hair. he looks like a young boy of 17-18 now ! it's really a shock la !

'his silky smooth hair is now proclaimed GONE !!

you still looks so fantasically cute though

4.12

2008-12-04T00:58:00.003+08:00

it's so hard to catchup with you.
i cant believe the power of tryin to put you off my thoughts
is freaking hard.

1.12

2008-12-01T20:12:00.006+08:00

my uncle brought me for few try-outs at golf. it's a damn paiseh situation because the ball just didnt went the way it should be.

i was watching ms and i fell in love straight for this band when it appeared -[flumpool] . their songs jus grips you to replay again and again.

the vocalist looks a little bit like the taiwan critic 小柏 or smthg. one of the 3bros.

but this vocalist looks hell better =DD

the bass guitarist is freaking coool and he looks damn sharp with those wavy fringe.

bring me to hmv plssssss

29.12

2008-11-29T17:16:00.004+08:00

i just had this out-to-finish-my-pocket-blues-notes for dvds & cds.
bring me to hmv pls.

it's 3days late but c'mon. happy bathday though

17.11

2008-11-17T19:39:00.002+08:00

im missing something today.
are you well today ?

2008-11-12T23:15:00.003+08:00

children books are entertaining la with all the vibrant colours. and my look at those newspaper scribbles.

"Chicken sat next to a chickent" difference of caps.

visual arts ? psycho ? hospitality ? omg, am i so lost !
go sleeeep first !

30.10

2008-10-30T21:56:00.002+08:00

wlao, today damn paiseh thing in toliet ZZZZ
pronouce inspiration and glasgow and film
siaaaaa laaaaa

28.10

2008-10-28T23:36:00.002+08:00

各執一詞。
it totally depicts what it's happening.
went for a run, it felt really good. damn good. hopefully can bring me straight to sleep.
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i look forward on sunday
for the queer relation shalt take place

2008-10-26T15:14:00.003+08:00

supernatural is really damn hilarious in this episode when dean turns to a little coward chicken. i love how supernatural is being done. both fun and a little horror.
have a little laugh
dl it here

25.10

2008-10-25T22:40:00.002+08:00

today finally had my 12hrs sleep. omg, it felt sooo good when i woke up. the whole week had been exhuasting. everyday had to end lesson for at least 5-6 + . wlao i still thought after promos would be much more relaxed.

today again went to visit my grandma. HAHAHS. A WARD lehs ! omg, my maid says "machiam like hotel" she's so freaking funny la ! i think my this maid is soooo funny lor. and her expressions is priceless. i can talk to her all day. then omg they had HBO channel so i sat and watch with her -"vacancy" for awhile before going back.

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it's wrong yet i still put you at the first
i look into the mirror yet it's stil you
i wonder if it's alrite
that the gap is huge
and the relation is so different

19.10

2008-10-19T16:37:00.003+08:00

《與敵同行》

there's only one plot throughout this series, but the fine details brought to series alive. the use of the casts is also beautifully chosen. In the first 8episodes, kevin cheng done his role well as he had to keep his temper going throughout the filming. He done it flawlessly. While the next 12episodes will be the brilliant cast of Roger kwok. omg,i hate him to core while i love him for he can make me hate him that much . and yeah yoyo mung is also in the cast =D she's gorgeous in any role. but the ending is sooo typical tvb ! there just seems to be a season2 to it. this type of show, one season would be sufficiently enough as season2 would just meant prolonging the one single plot in the series. oh well, at least i hope i can still can to see yoyo mung on next season or i'll !#$%^&*()_+=

18.10

2008-10-18T11:52:00.005+08:00

it's today, the finale -《與敵同行》it's a nice show, will talk about it after i watch the finale .

we all understand the need of your presence so it could do a good show, a good of everything. so why make a bother of everything asking me for the sake of asking. At the end, you make it out im from circus while you originate from the grand. all your white asking only plainly clearly basically fundamentally caused me reluctantly to attend makings of the good shows.

15.10

2008-10-15T14:55:00.006+08:00

project runway had never get onto my nerves until this very episode.
Leanne is a total bitch and shld get kicked off from Bryant park. inititally i quite like her cos of the design she did at episode3 is abolutely stunning. but her personality is so fucked up when gets into top 5 she way she talks is bitchy. the way she drags her every syllable is absolutely nerve-racking.

my other fave designers are already out and only left Kenley. and so fucked up la, everyone is so against her and the leanne is fucking awfully disgusting.

pls get leanne out of the show, im sick of her every little smuggy sly smile.
DL this episode

12.10

2008-10-12T11:13:00.004+08:00

from the first time i watch this show [last friends] during april. i alr in love with the song. u know u'd too. =)
Prisoner of Love
DL MF .

10.10

2008-10-10T02:18:00.003+08:00

gd day ne. EH ?! gd day !?!
morning hadnt been all nice, had a bad dream of my tsk lit cher tsk tan S.L. bad omen eh.
"how do you want me to write the report ?"
write however you wanted, i dont want be responsible for ur ill-worries.

8.10

2008-10-08T19:45:00.002+08:00

tmr hist lehhhhhs. xp loves to traumatise me all the way.
today had maths &lit, ahh lit, ahh lit, ahh lit, man lit, aiyah lit, tsk lit, tsk tan S.L, tsk for snatchin my exampp, tsk wats ur prb, tsk tskk !?!

omg, BB u're sooo super duper cute !!!!!!!

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i read through
demanded this, wanted this way
theres no need for a reply
it dont need a reply
it just needed me to know
you're so overly controlsivelight faint soft heart pls do move away

5.10

2008-10-05T23:20:00.002+08:00

pee がすきです
shit がすきです
sleep がすきです
slack がすきです

omg, がすきです the phrase がすきです !!!
がすきです me !!!!

3.10

2008-10-03T21:28:00.003+08:00

xiaoping just text me out of blue, i thought she's damn pia-ing for promos.
xp: hows your preparation for promos ?
d : so-so lor, u lehs ? you seems pia to siao le
xp: mus jyjy ! bt nthg is goin in, sort of givin up, trying hard to retain.
d: i was thking of stay-on or retain and ...
sudden instance, i felt i had alot of things to say. xp told me i really had too much to think, i shld forgo everything and jus do the best for the promos. whether anot we the passed the promos is another hurdle to think about. tt's why i've been hesitating since july till now. i hesitated, i paused, i stopped to think too much.

altho i know 1-2 weeks of constant hardwork wont get me anywhr near promotion, but i guess would probably get me nearer to retain than kick out of sch.im aiming all subpass and at least one h2 pass =Dim deciding the subs im takingmaths, chem/bio , hist/econs, cse =)

2.10

2008-10-02T10:24:00.002+08:00

im going to quarantine myself in the squarish messy study room until promos end. dont i ever crawl back into my room ok!

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i never knew it's jus hard with 1line with you
i fuzzes.

30.9

2008-09-30T23:16:00.003+08:00

i used up my last pad of all in sch. so i had to go buy by today or else i'll be stacking tissues. and so conincidentally, xueyi's stocks are out too. so we made out way to ntuc to buy

i had gotten xueyi's first time of buying pads, lameshit la, u're total gay. so gay. stil has the cheek to ask me, wats the diff between a day and night pad ?

looks thoroughly dumb holding the pad on one hand, making my way back home thru mrt and bus. ZZZZZZ .

" you smell like my BB's shit "

29.9

2008-09-29T19:10:00.001+08:00

the attitude puts me off, wats urss prbss ? i probably guessed that exams reveals ursss trueself form. it's a alr a demon breeding in you eh, it's another kind, another form. this demon is be praised for its selfisness. it's willinglessness to puts in effort and forgo other kinds around it. The demon gained praises, gained regonition, gained joy. The lIttle sheep naively believes all the demonic words. lIttle sheep polishes demon's shoes, carries demonic bags while it kepts happy just eating sprouted greens. lIttle sheep never understands, or maybe it doesnt want to understand, it prefers to be kept away with pastures of sprouted green grass. maybe it doesnt want to care anymore. lIttle sheep met enough demons. Happy, is be together with greens.

28.9

2008-09-28T00:20:00.002+08:00

i did few qns on maths today. few weekends of the many im doing something constructive. but i ended up ripping off songs everywhere. I wasted my day away. i forgot all about I&R until my fren comes along and ask me for it for reference. damn sia, so much things to do.
let's seeee we hav I&R, lit presentation, hist essay, maths tutorial, pw slides . for the whole of today i just thought of hist and maths. HAHAHHS !

my relatives had always been asking about my academic results like from the start of jc. i guess i had been lying from the start of the jc. not really had a clue what kind of shit results i had been getting except for my ct and seriously with 4Us at hand. im such a gd liar.

27.9

2008-09-27T00:49:00.006+08:00

there's this canto song that kept playin in the speakers. the melody is just right. i figured theres alot of work this weekend. the lit presentation which i dont even know how to start, mr ong is so gonna screw me up "im barring you from my consultations from now on cos you skip my lecture again!" or mayb "follow me to vp lak room". the pw the pw !!!! WLAO LA ! overly-in-control, stop askin me if it's ok when you'll insist it's okay if i say it's not ok. so why bother askin me if it's ok with me to be ok w ur ideas. im not against you, the script is overly-dramatize and you seriously watch way too much diss-channel. and the worst part is when i wan state my comment, u'll try to move the topic away and oh yah reason your way out AS USUAL. so you doin a leader's job so i asked you qns since u wan be control, so yeah u giv me those answers of "it's up to you if you want it anot" hell, now u giv me back the control. seroiusly, you're the nicest and sincerest fren ever if i were to compare u with the class but in pw .. jus zzz ok.

23.9

2008-09-23T21:28:00.003+08:00

fuck la, my temper is rising, and there is the weather fanning the fire.

21.9

2008-09-21T15:01:00.002+08:00

WOOO ! KUROSAGI ~~~ yamapi on the BIG screeeen ! finally get to watch the movie after months of wait . it's pretty nice, $8 is zhi de zhi de.

all the advertisments wasting my time.

his face appears !

"life's but a walking shawdow" - William shakespeare.

=D kurosagi man !

it's seriously funny to listen to jeanie's experiences with the upper class aunties. WHAHAHHS !
- "mymy, super efficient, how you people do it ?!?!?"

18.9

2008-09-18T23:05:00.002+08:00

wlao, dont know who siaaaa, say you're at the middle of the train, make me run from front to the middle, and then still accidentally step onto someone - got stared at. but when you're not in the middle of the train but the next cabin, left from the lift !

good ar you good ar !

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felt so bad that all's that it been there

was gone .

17.9

2008-09-17T23:18:00.002+08:00

just had my tuition finished by 10 then went down to watch The Academy. my that tutor is seriously crappy la ! the way she's scared of BB is sooo hysterical. and so like wenhui, when i wasnt noticing will take shotsss. zzzz .

today sch is soo short.

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i took a turn and saw you,
expressionlessly passed my lurching body
i want to demand it
im no position to demand
i could only dream, picture it
never could i see it again.
im sorry ...
sorry for myself

16.9

2008-09-16T20:24:00.005+08:00

pe is gettin all so boring with those swing swing jump jump . damn skipping. and it's plain stupid to get backache while sms-ing on mrt. it's straining my neck sia. it's tuesday already, deadly thurs is like coming sooooooon already ! 3weeks to promos, but i really dont have the mood to sit down and study. it's like destiny for me to retain zzzz . let's go ouh la la !

btw i haven shown you our dear awwwwouch pinye face
-------------------------your smiles i seen it from a distancei was alarmed.it was sweeeet, alluring, gentlebut i took it for grantedso when the distance grew wideri realised how much i missed iti just hope it's just yesterday you smiled.

11.9

2008-09-11T23:10:00.004+08:00

911 .

it's jus been barely a week and everyone is on walking zombies mode.
gdluck everyone. -----------Ure only like a rose that withers Withers, for the red is not thereUre burning red in my headRed, it's at back of my head now.Im changing colours again.Not into the withered roseany longer.

7.9

2008-09-07T22:22:00.002+08:00

我要开学了~~~
要命呀！！！
watch weixiaobaoweixiaobaoweixiaobaoweixiaobao

5.9

2008-09-05T11:27:00.004+08:00

Y: if you realise wat date is today, you'll know how you fare
D: I do, and seriously, i thought of playing dumb
Y: Real cute, but aint you think it's a little immature ?
D: hellyeah, but i aint got solution, or do you think the message sends a better understding ?
Y: why the msg ?
D: it's all in a shithole, im living in the shits.
Y: but arent i, you ?
D: we both are in shithole
Y: so i shld be thinkin in same way then ?
D: if you want to.

2.9

2008-09-02T14:20:00.005+08:00

im fucking wasting time blogging again .
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neither here nor there
limbs assured but confidence's not
intelligence secured but mentally torn
ah ! can i still have a exchange ?

stding midway on Your highway
people fluttering around me like locks
but i could not fit
bills never wore me down
but whr's my self-worth?
it's suppsoed to be my worldbut i realised it's Yours.ah ! what a silly thing to be staying.

1.9

2008-09-01T18:49:00.003+08:00

1st of september. im seriously need to start studying TONIGHT. i hadnt been doing anything constructive for the whole weekend. and hey tomorrow is ron's and ivy's bathday. ron is 29 this year ! ohwell happy 18th bathday for ivy. surprised ivy at her house, ahhh im the best i know !
happy birthday to wenhui as well.

another magnificent poster. it's exhilarating ! but just that i couldnt manage to finish that night cos im way too tired. so i dragged for two weeks watching this which made it alot harder to digest. so please watch it all at one go, never dragged-watch a movie ! the climax is all found at the start but the suspense is throughout the movie so hell yeah go watch. too bad no gorgeous actors/actresses this time round.

30.8

2008-08-30T22:49:00.002+08:00

happy bathday rebe . nan de i post personal pics up again. it was such a heavy dinner last night. ahh couting it there's alot of bdays on sep. sep those creeeepos.
wats on my shirt babe ?

aint it swwweeeeet .

*stiffs*

sometimes we jus need to do tell the truth

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hands in mine,
shoulders in mine,
head under my body,
body leans on me,
heart distances away from me.

27.8

2008-08-27T23:41:00.003+08:00

weird that i'm terribly busy on every wednesdays. It mus be the work of Tan S.L, so paranoid-ying. and someone save me out of IT. im terribly bored, i went out halfway to play bball with neuroshar they all and in the last mins of my cca, i went back - did nothing !

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Set the work improperly infront of me,
traces of coloured scenes flings on me.
im all distracted ; are you there somewhere ?
in me, i knew, it's not pure at all,
Like a stained white cloth, like a smirched white paper.

Settled down with table infront of me,
last night's coloured thoughts caught on me.
im all distracted ; can you come now ?
in me, i knew, it's not likeness at all,
Like it encroaches on me, but i let it pass.

im all distracted, waiting for you to respond.

25.8

2008-08-25T22:37:00.006+08:00

it has a great poster(s) . Half the work is done enough to attract you to catch the film, and 2ndly the synopsis says the assasin falls in love with the person he is to kill. That's attraction no.2 already. No.3 The main guy (one w shorter hair) is soo fuckin cute. There's too many dark areas in the film which i can say is pretty disturbing. There's violence, revenge, hate, love, diseases, incest all put into one. But overall, i'd rate it good althought true enough there are loopholes like at the start. I still dont get the valid reason for why the heck the assasin doesnt wish to kill him for he will get killed (so damnit) ! however, however, the flow of the love story sort of get you into their position (or i got invovled) and drew you into the storyline. too much mature themes.

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it found me and i thought what it was,
enticing me with that aroma of urs,
but when it got nearer to my heart,
i pushed it away .
Just as when ure closing on me,
i shoved that closeness of urs,
and i felt i can never be in love again.

24.8

2008-08-24T23:55:00.006+08:00

drips. drops. drizzles.
nice wet day.

the last friday match really got me swollen on left chest. ohwell, at least the pain made us earn a goal . didnt manage to finish a movie this weekend. i'll jus do a movie which i watched last weeeek.
---------------------------------ur body will curve to my direction,
swings with my rhythm,
dances with my beats.
i'd fallen --
i'd been hit
by struck of lovestroke.
i would lay on clouds,
looking so down on you,
gay-ed, youre under me forever.

19.8

2008-08-19T20:44:00.002+08:00

pinye is so damn cute la "whr's my file ? someone took it accientally?"

soccer is so damn fun today ~~~

18.8

2008-08-18T20:23:00.004+08:00

another weekly movie treat .

There's nothing much to anticipate in this movie. Unless you're looking for a comfortable break under the air-con and seriously cant bothered with sappy romance or thrillers movie, this could be the one for the weekend stay home movie. It simply narrates on the bonding between the Uncle and his niece, at the start, her mum dumps her and ran away. Which left the girl and the Uncles to fend for themselves. After the uncle got sacked, they went onto a little roadtrip and met the girl's grandad.. Near the ending, there's a little angst which will happen between the Uncle's dad (girl's grandad). I suppose that is the only climax of the film for me. Annasophia Robb acts well in here, and is so gorgeous in close view ! xD

17.8

2008-08-17T16:03:00.002+08:00

mymy, application of differentiation is really hard now. doin my work in central library, xiaoping went to buy coffee i guess. i give up that tutorial 3.1a for now, i had to start doin history. cannot lose my face during the 1 to 1 consultation. WHAHAHHAHAHHS. the people beside me seems to be talking in canto but sounds like hokkien then again sounds like phillipines den again i tot is thai ? wth ? now i realised thai language is quite .. intriguing.

10.8

2008-08-10T16:21:00.001+08:00

the olympic parade is amazing .

This film touches on the slightest details from the adolescents' desire of love and lust. The lead even went to collect the rubbish of her love and keep it in her drawer. French movies always tends to have a unclear startings and endings, and throughout the movie, you had to focus on their body language, their eyes as their dialogues are little. That makes a good set of actors and actresses . side note . Adele Haenel is really gorgeous .

7.8

2008-08-07T13:33:00.004+08:00

if you still remember the last two movies both alex fong and stephy tang starred in previously, you must remember to catch this movie again. Comparatively, i think i will choose back [Love is Not all Around]. [L. For Love L. For Lies] there's alot of twists and turns, it keeps you engaged into the film. However the last twist at the end is not helping the movie at all, it's making it unnecesarry and to the max - irritated. Moreover, it has no link back to the main storyboard. Nevertheless, watch this movie, if you had not watch Love is not all around before, you'll love this one.

if you understand canto. watch this, this is the ONLY funny part throughout the whole movie .

6.8

2008-08-06T21:07:00.004+08:00

IT club is like seriously relax. only the last 10mins of the cca, we actually did something constructive, other times we're either surfin the net, doin our workstuff or yeah nap on the desk.

im pissed off by ah lu , keep insisting i'm not doin any work so i deserve all these. ohhellit, i couldnt be bothered to debate with her, i'm just so exhuasted . i really couldnt be bothered talking to her now.

happy bday mrsng. you're 39 this yr =D the end of prime manhood for you.

if only you noticed the words my eyes were speaking of,
i wouldnt have trouble,
i wouldnt need others,
if only i were made to remember how it's feel like to be near someone,
my heartbeats is alive again.

1.8

2008-08-01T23:27:00.002+08:00

seriously, never felt so fucked up and desperate, all great salutation to pw. ohmy, you're the object man ! im definately at same time pissed off. im really loaded with unfinished work, i wanted to skip school today initially cos i din managed to finish my gp and hist essay. but when i thought of maths tutorial today that is SOOO significant and important. jus fuck it and go .

so i did got my deserts for not doin the work, pw in such a mess, and tests the whole next week . maths + cse + hist. oh really fuck it and i havent done pw. seriously, this weekend is not enough at all .

25.7

2008-07-25T23:19:00.003+08:00

testing. testing. =D
my friend said she's gettin a punching bag for me cos of my sudden interest for thai boxing. haaas. serious ? i think my parents would think i'm dumb.

extra history lessons. so gdnights,

24.7

2008-07-24T22:06:00.003+08:00

ahh, finally im back bloggin again .
lately, i am always stayin back at sch until 8+ cos i really need to study ! 2mths + towards promos and i've been getting 4 Us already . so by end of year if i dont earn myself a B for all the U subjects, i can jolly well get retained (again) or kicked out of school .

and pw, oh fuck hell, it's killing me

4.7

2008-07-03T22:36:00.001+08:00

my com is finally fixed.
thankyou !

18.5

2008-05-18T20:23:00.002+08:00

a.
HOW S EVERYONE ?!

2.5

2008-05-02T20:17:00.002+08:00

jc is disastrous, hell since i choose it, i stick with it.
i havent been able to finish my hmk so i skipped sch today jus to finish them or else i had to burn more nights.

i've been running at nights or mornings in recent two weeks, cos of 2.4, i suppose is today but since i skipped sch.. wth.

im goin to beijing end of may . entirely school trip . hopefully their global warming isnt that bad that i had to suffer the weather like now. sg is soooo fking hot these days.

happy schooling.
i wan more [shaun the sheep] !!

13.4

2008-04-13T12:54:00.002+08:00

i really felt like taking a year off from studies and be like a waste .
i felt i've been managing all these like a kid .
they'll say "u're 18 so pls grow up and handle things in a mature style."
ohsogreat.

10.3

2008-03-10T20:10:00.002+08:00

ahh, damn. prob with my com isnt solved yet . ahh, damn.
i cldnt direct dl, cldnt sign in blogger, cldnt read emails, cldnt type into forms. damn ! im gonna reformat this crap.

so now it's march holis and jc life is really so boring . 1&half more yrs im gonna graduate if i got over my promos . ah damn, for my uni dream, im gonna withstand this crap years in jc.

2.3

2008-03-02T22:58:00.003+08:00

my damn com is infected with sum donkies i believe . cos i cant even sign into blogger. so now i had to use my bro's mac to do sum stuff .

NP/JC , i havent decide actually. it's a long list of reasons and factors. the course that i had for poly course is not that simple at all.

it felt really nice when my uncle says that i have great imaginative side when i was young when i could make things out of nothing into stories. it's all the past anyway and here i am, neither good academically nor creatively .

im stuck in middle of highway again .

24.2

2008-02-24T23:57:00.005+08:00

(haven used PS for such long time ; i miss my freedom)just realise today that my cousin has went back to NYP to teach media courses. ahh darn, i did appeal for NYP but its hospitality course. i greatly regret choosin that course aft 1day of appealing. on other hand, i would feel weird if my cousin is teaching me in a lecturer room . i would probably laugh all the way, did i just paste tape all over her face during CNY .WHAHAHAHS !ahh so tmr is my first day of offical JC life. so damn it man. i gotta wake up like 6+ in morning again. WHAT A ROUTINE LIFE I HAVE !

22.2

2008-02-22T23:14:00.003+08:00

so i went for yjc for thurs & fri. and i met amy and jinying. so shock to see them. i could hardly recognise jinying actually.

the people there were nice. but in bad way they just keep asking & influence me to stay in jc. ahh did thought of it as well, but as soon i was reminded of the sch u, the GP, the 2.4 ... man how i want to be in poly . seriously my heart is half with jc and half with poly. im really so confused with my own needs at every moment and sec. ARHGHGHS ! jus giv me my psycho course and i'll be so satisfied .

so i guess i'll still be attending classes next week . we'll see by 28th then .

it's 20feb

2008-02-20T20:51:00.003+08:00

i felt so awfully awful right now.
it's like for the whole of the holis i had prepared my life for eduation in 2mths from now.
and a sudden jerk of change in schedule and a sudden change of going back to what i lived with for the past 10 years of my life . i thought i was never goin back .
its just too sudden . cant they just start after 1week. im too naïve .

20.2

2008-02-20T17:44:00.002+08:00

i cant believe i had to put on the fucking uniform again and walk on the bloody streets and back to fucking sch life .

i felt for the whole of my academic life, none has fucking been smooth before. is it because of my fucked up attitude towards it or God is fucked up with me.

WHAT ?!

2008-02-19T00:25:00.002+08:00

can people die from eating excess antibiotics ?

18.1

2008-02-18T01:08:00.005+08:00

a superb pack occassion today. my grandma's sis family was here which basically is really the whole family which accounts for the near 100 ppl at my house.
my cousins & i were the waiters and waitresses for the day. there were sure alot of youths over their side comparing to my side. my side is basically covered with working adults or at least uni stage all except for me.

im so awesomely dead-beat aft the clear-up .
CHEERS & NIGHTS !

14.1

2008-02-14T21:02:00.008+08:00

icons #3 !
today are a little more text-y . lol . today is the last batch for the time being, since i've got a HUGE time-consuming thing coming up at fri + weekends (yeah) .

every icon represents different kind of mood. i dont know why either, suddenly i was doin mood icons. btw, Feast of Love is nice though, the movie is basically more based on the plot than the explict scenes.catch it if you can =)happy weekends everyone !!

13.1

2008-02-13T14:23:00.002+08:00

Icons #2
veri obvious, i want to train up my right brain . i felt my creative side had narrowed alot since my sec days . ahhh ... my brainy right where are you !?

my brain died out at no.25 which is the last one. very obvious the last one really is NOTHING !

10.1

2008-02-10T13:29:00.000+08:00

abt wat i said earlier my bad . malibu + pineapple blend = YUM !

9.1

2008-02-09T02:06:00.000+08:00

hahahahahhahahas ! today is really fun . not crashed at all
97% happy-ness ! 3% underdue is bcos of you .
chu er is always the best .

8.1

2008-02-08T00:20:00.000+08:00

Me: toliet smells .
Y : later the cleaner will filter the place
Me: is it? but it still smells .
Y: cos maybe the cleaner hasnt done yet
M: yah, the toliet smells .
Y: cos of the human traffic
M: i know, im plainly saying it .
Y: then dont complain !
Me: You just cant handle gals, so be off gay .
Y : (retarded laugh) jus fuck off .

ohh fuckurself . i hate homophobs .
LET ME REPEAT : IM ONLY SAYING IT AND DONT EXPECT YOU TO CLEAN UP THE FUCKING TOLIET !

i had the worst CNY till now .
jus pray pray pray tmr wont be crash . ty.
wtf should i expect so much ?

5.2

2008-02-05T00:54:00.000+08:00

ICONS !!!!!!
the 2nd & 3rd icon totally .. CMI ! yamapi _ massui was waiting for my hair so wasted my time away ..

5.2

2008-02-05T00:15:00.000+08:00

shopping is so sians .

so my whole evening + night is spent doin this. cookies & pineapple tarts. they taste delicious . it was even more tasty when they were here to help along .

sleepy nights .

2.1

2008-02-02T23:30:00.000+08:00

"RIP"

It flew around aimlessly, looking around at different trees. Different leaves. Different shades of green. Different shapes of leaves. It doesnt dare to stop, it doesnt know what will happen once it had. It only wanted to return back to its home-tree.

But it never did thereafter.

1.2

2008-02-01T14:16:00.000+08:00

that's right, we borrowed chen lei's dog for awhile
say hi !

31.1

2008-01-31T18:09:00.000+08:00

ahh, when the postman arrive with a dingdong (which normally they dont) ! the instinct tells me the CDs are here ! if anyone still rmbs, i had been wanting them since last year . lol ! cos i thought i would be making a trip to HK instead to get them .
20.8.2007

30.1

2008-01-30T23:23:00.000+08:00

i love BB's tail back then . mouse tail i would call it . now, fluffy ? spuffy ? it just sprang in all direction on a random day . i believe she was goin thru puberty during that period of tail-spuffy-ing.

30.1

2008-01-30T14:10:00.000+08:00

the news this mornin . i felt that my chances ...

22.1

2008-01-22T21:30:00.000+08:00

it's always enjoying to see singers tgt enjoying themselves . it's funny also when the other singers got their award and started singing, the others were there behind dancing .

touched .

18.1

2008-01-18T23:57:00.000+08:00

flight delayed for 4&1/2 hrs . totally aroused my sleepy-bug . grandma got admitted to hosopital so had to rush to NUH after landing, glad she's okay . i still feel the pain when i learn that she's suffering cos sumtimes i cant stand the way she does things . oh nvm .

finally back home, laid-back - time to sleep .
other than the boat parachute, safari world and the tranny show, the whole trip ruin my total mood . bldy long story .

11.1

2008-01-11T21:41:00.000+08:00

yikes ! im flying tmr (song). 3pm flight to thai . seriously, i havent really done packing with some of my things . so guess i had to start doin it now .

back in 5 or 6 days time - im not even sure myself .

9.1

2008-01-09T01:13:00.000+08:00

“ 世界上最遥远的距离，并不是生与死，
而是我明明站在你面前，你却不知道我爱你。
世界上最遥远的距离，不是明明知道彼此相爱而不能在一起，
而是明明抵擋不住這個思念，却又故意装作丝毫没有把你放在心里。”

i not so poetic but even up till now it still touches me . maybe because it relates to many of us . =)
so lately i had been workin with my aunt at bookshop. some kids really are soooo adorable yet some are just WHY-DID-YOU-EVEN-EXIST that sort of kid .
one kid ask "do you sell something that can stick on ur mouth"
me : "WHAHAHAHAHAHAhASHH ! nope, we dont"
so plenty of time during off-recess periods make me recall my pri sch life . i miss every part of chapter, of how i was sooooo shy that i will not talk to anyone but myself. i remembered i used to talk to myself when i was pri 1 . i thought i was nuts .

6.1

2008-01-06T01:02:00.000+08:00

lao zi really too wu you wu lü now . whahahaahahhas . such a pity im losing this life weeks later .
talking abt weeks later, im quite certain the course im going to take . im goin ^for psycho WOOOO !

the COP for that particular course is 9 so hmm , if i couldnt get there, im goin for jc cos other courses are wasting my time .

i just like to understand people - the queer-est thing on earth

3.1

2008-01-03T03:24:00.000+08:00

bad thoughts bad thoughts bad thoughts .

1.1

2008-01-01T01:19:00.000+08:00

what do i miss about 2007 ?
SERIOUSLY, there seems to be nothing on my mind .
bleak .

if i was given a choice . i would rather miss 2003 . so it would be 2004 today .
as much as everytime i says i hate to be in guzhen CCA . actually i love to be part of it and i would love to perform tgt with everyone on stage again .
yah, min huiting zhen were like the *inexplainable* people in my life then .
so much changed yet damn it i havent even grown an inch . KILLLLLLLL !!!!

even so, i still ctreasrish the ones around me =)
yah whatever i cant do/take goosebumps words .

crap.
what a loser, iam.

30.12

2007-12-30T01:23:00.001+08:00

i ran . i ran all the way home . tonight is way too scary .

poor B, she's been limping for days, and i really had no idea wats wrong with her . vet time again .

28.12

2007-12-28T00:41:00.000+08:00

maybe due to the fact i dont have to go school during jan . I didnt realise it's days before arrival of 2008. I want to learn driving . but i've got a really bad sense of direction, and i couldnt take criticism . based on my dad and bro's character i bet they'll say no they'll shout

"DUMB AR, dont go this way go that way and you can ... blah blah blah"

wth . then based on my temper now, i would feel like banging the car straight to the butt of anothers' .

HAPPY NEW YEAR !

24.12

2007-12-24T00:33:00.000+08:00

dear santa,

if you're ever going to be eternally true on the earthly crust of my world . pls damn it answer my first wish which i had make .

you always gave present to good kids but im not a kiddo anymore so i suppose the 'good' does not need to apply in this case . i still call my mother Ma and my father Pa, still good .

so here it is,
what i want for christmas is ...

22.12

2007-12-22T18:35:00.000+08:00

PEK CHEK !
VER Y VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY !

20.12

2007-12-20T23:56:00.000+08:00

t o d a y i s s u p e r t i r i n g .
c r a s h i n g i n . -

18.12

2007-12-18T20:17:00.000+08:00

i had such a dramatic dream . i wonder what had my subconscious mind be imagining while im sleeping . it portrays me as a girl so in love with the boy next door but was stopped by the boy's parents as they wanted to find someone to match their wealthy respectable family status . so there was this another girl which the next door boy likes and whom matches their family status perfectly. let me say, this girl's face is utterly familiar ! i jus realise whose she . wth !

nevertheless i would sneak into his house to find him and he'll always protect me from his father . but in end i still got track down by his dad . so like other wealthy families in shows, they buy us over with $$. just that in my dream i was supposingly to be bought over by food - abalone . yes i was sitting on the dinner table with MY dad eating the damn it abalone.

when i wake up i realise what a damn it and ridiculous dream i had when in first place im not in love with the boy next door . i still had the creeps whenever i was reminded of his dad .

13.12

2007-12-13T21:21:00.000+08:00

cant believe for the whole damn day i was gaming URHGHGHSS !

i wanted to finish all the damn it missions but it jus didnt end .

btw, it's pretty certain im not going korea nor hk nor jap nor m'sia but .. thai .

AT LEAST IM GOING SOMEWHERE !!!!

12.12

2007-12-12T21:20:00.000+08:00

lameshit. lameshit. lameshit. lameurine. even lamershit.

arhghs. not 18, cant have supplementary card !#$%^&*@

9.11

2007-12-09T23:26:00.000+08:00

很好玩hor
pls go find a hole & bury urself in it.
fucking short tempered .

8.11

2007-12-08T17:28:00.000+08:00

最討厭被人耍~
真的很

5.11

2007-12-05T20:49:00.000+08:00

passport done .

4.11

2007-12-04T00:43:00.000+08:00

ah, dilemma . tsk tsk

28.11

2007-11-28T22:39:00.000+08:00

it's been a bloody long period since i blog .

HAHAAHHAAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHS
fullstop.

12.10 intoxicated

2007-10-12T01:09:00.000+08:00

bliss . perky . exultant . gay .
with this around,
cant stop thinking,
cant stop imagining .
it's sweet to have this around oneself .

. yearn .